Serenity

Hello.

Last night I wrote a very graphic piece in which a character portraying me violently killed a character portraying the girl who's been troubling me at school. And you know what? I feel better. A lot better. I actually had the drive to get out of bed half an hour late and actually do my makeup this morning, which I haven't done in days.

I had the opportunity to meet thriller author Jeff Buick, as he is a personal friend of my neighbours, and one story I never hear enough times is about how he got very angry at Revenue Canada and ended up having a character violently murder a tax agent. He was less angry about paying his taxes that year.

And now I understand why that works. It helps you unleash pent up fury and afterwards you kind of feel like you have an edge when you're around that person. You feel like you're more in control of the situation. And no one actually gets hurt in the process. Double positive, I see no downside here. Except that perhaps I sound like a psychopath... I don't care. I feel really good for the first time in two weeks and it's all thanks to writing. I knew there was a reason I love this profession.

I decided to fore-go my recurve tonight and opted for longbow. I more or less figured out how to do it at 20m, but I need practice. If I anchor with my index finger at the corner of my mouth and point the tip of the arrow exactly where I want it to go, I usually hit it. I just need to practice more. Regionals are on Sunday starting at 9 am so I need to mentally prepare for that. I'm looking forward to it actually. I will be shooting my recurve, of course, and I'm pretty sure I'll do well. I haven't been shooting particularly well lately, in fact I'm about 60 points down from my old average, so I need to just sit down for a half hour or so and just mentally train: a yoga elastic band, some rubber bands and maybe a stick and I'll have everything I need to mentally train for this thing. The stick is used to position the shoulders correctly, the rubber bands are tied together and used as a makeshift string for draw, anchor and release practice, and the yoga band is for stretching and resistance training. If I take a half hour or an hour I can do this.

That's all for today, I was just enjoying the bliss of being guilt free for once.

Tschüs!
~Alexandra